TOTAL ALIZÉE - [TEMPORARY CLOSURE]... IT'S BACK!!!!

[Lía]

Because of recent events in my personal life, I have decided to close the site for the immediate future. The reason? In May I had a nervous breakdown, and during this month my life has got worse – I have no social life and I’m moody all the time. I do not wish that I should carry on being moody, because this life sucks. Therefore, I have decided to get counselling and will ask my doctor to increase my medication. I have also decided to focus on re-building my life, and thus my life is more important to me now than ever before. I have also decided to add more to my autobiography, which I have been writing since 2002, and I the aim of it is to make more people become aware of what I am going through. At the moment, I need all the support that I can get, and wish to thank you all in advance for your messages of support. If I receive any further e-mails about why I have taken this course of action, then I will simply not reply as I am having a hard time as it is, and I don’t want to get ****** off! If you have me on msn, then please don’t be afraid to speak to me, but it depends if I’ll be on it... Thanks. Lé gra, Lía x

p.s. if i don't appear on the forums as such, then the above is the same reason...

thanx....

[Thanasis]

Aaaaah i am moody all the time and my life is a bit boring also, i dont know what problem you may have but try to stay calm... someday one litle thing will happen and it will change your life for ever... annyway try to discuss with others your problems.. sometimes people from chatting may understunt you better and help you. Comunication is the key to feel better even when you want to be alone ( weird eeeh? :mrgreen: )

[Lía]

well... i'm on medication that 'supposed' to make me calm... but i have a communication disorder and i suppose that that has an effect on my life... my life is in such a mess and i need to sort things out... so right now the site isn't important to me.... :shock:

[Thanasis]

Well i dont care about nothing if i have to <<fix>> my life... site is the last that i am going to care about

[Lía]

i'm sorry - but c'est la vie. it's time that i need to change my life before i do something drastic to my life. :doc: :flush: :shutup:

[Thanasis]

I dont know "c'est la vie" 8) ..... i know "i make my fortune" :mrgreen:

[Lía]

'c'est la vie' means that's life :cheesy:

[Mr Bond]

I wish you all the best. I'm sure things will come right for u eventually. :D Acknowledging that you need help is a good start don't suffer in silence I hope this will allow you to put things in perspective.

[Ayan]

I have no social life and I’m moody all the time.
but i have a communication disorder and i suppose that that has an effect on my life... my life is in such a mess and i need to sort things out...
I've always thought that's normal. . . silly me :/

[Lía]

^lol...

thanx 4 the support....

[krazykanadian]

Even though I don't know you in real life, you seem like a really great person online. I wish you all the best in whatever you are going through right now. Know that we are always here to give you moral support.

[Manu]

Everybody has low moments, my best wishes are for you, and hope you can be very very happy for the rest of your life. If you ever need somebody to chat with or talk about anything, whatever, you can find me on msn.

Bisous ;)

[jon]

I'm sure everything will end up better than it is. Remember you always have a place on the forum. :thumbup:

[Orion]

I have noticed that it is the thoughts that come in our heads that are negative and we tend to listen to them. just say to yourself "stop! I will not listen to you."

Thoughts are either about the future or the past, and you need to realize that the past and the future are not present. you are missing out on your current life if you listen to your thoughts that are filled with worries. Focus on the NOW, whatever is in front of your nose, and slowly, you will learn to ignore those thoughts that might be about anything; it doesn't matter.

My mom always tells me that I should be a psychologist because I'm always guessing what's wrong with somebody or I tend to know why a particular person is doing something in a certain way, or saying a particular thing. I can read there hidden agenda unbeknownst to them.

So, if you need someone to talk to, PM me and I will give you my contact information. I know I'm a stranger to you right now, but realize that the person you are right now is not the person you are supposed to be. When you look in the mirror every morning you see the troubled person that you have lost due to thoughts that take hold of you. You have to learn to lose those thoughts in order to find your true self again. Finally if you ever find yourself listenning to your thoughts, you have to learn to tell yourself to ignore them. It will be hard at first, but the longer you practice, the easier and faster the process will work towards ridding you of any dependace you have on your thoughts.

I will pray for your safety and happiness.

[Ron V.]

I know I don't know you very well, but the offer is the same for me, if you ever want to talk it out to someone that you don't know very well (sometimes that's easier), I'll always be willing to lend an ear. I hope you feel better soon, and I'm sure you'll find a way to pull out of it.

[Dusty]

Blah.............. what?

[Orion]

Dusty I hope you read my post because it applies to you too. I did not study this but I know what goes on. Don't ask me how.

There might be something from your past that is eating away at you. It could have been something traumatic most likely, and it is lodged inside your subconscious mind. The pills only block the electircal connection that makes you feel a certain way, but it will not cure you.

You have to realize that people do not look at you differently, because you might be different. When you step outside, people do not pay special attention to you; which might make you uncomfortable if you actually thought so. Do what I told AFUK, ignore your thoughts. How did I know that thoughts are the problem? Realize that the only thing that is wrong with you is your thoughts. Whatever happens to you, or happenED, your thoughts have taken control of you . You are not your thoughts. What you are witnessing in your life, as far as emotions go, is fake. They are emotions that are not warranted becasue they come from thoughts that do not know anything about you or what's right from wrong. So, why listen to them. Realize this and you will realize that your situation is only a shell around you that you have to break.

If you want to talk PM me. It will be confidential. I will not tell a soul.

The reason I'm doing this is because I genuinely care. I'm like this by nature; and I hope you can see past the natural distrust that people have towards strangers.

You do not have to tell me your big secrets, I only want to help you from being controlled by something other than your true self.

The next time you have the feeling of cutting wrists ask yourself one question: "who the fuck am I cutting my wrists for?" and How the fuck did I get here, to this point"? This isn't me. Where is me, the "I" that encapsulates me and defines my true self." AND GET MAD; SWEAR AT THE SITUATION.

Get mad at the thoughts the drive your negativity. Leave those that you feel bring it on; and discard of anything that eggs it on and move from your place. Wherever you live now, if you can afford it, move. Start new!

I truly hope your situation clears. But before this happens, remember that your mind must clear also.

I hope I haven't overstepped my bounds here; its just that I care. It's a good idea for you and AFUK to talk. Just don't forgewt to hate the thoughts and to get mad at them because you must discard them instead of listenning to them.

Take care.

[jon]

This is to both Alizee_Fan_UK and Dusty:

Realize that your emotions are only the reactions to reality, not reality itself. Something may have happened in your past that you cannot get past because of the trauma and how it makes you feel. Realize that if you change your attitude it will change your emotional reaction towards the troubles of life. A whoel new outlook on life will not change your past but teach you how to cope with it in a healthy way.

It seems like Orion can help you through this and you should take him up on the offer. And if not him, then you defiantely should talk to someone who understands you. It will help get you through this hard period. I dearly wish success to you both.

[Joseph]

I have noticed I have had many different dreams at night... this won't happen to me right? Does the mind hate Alizée?!?! :cry:

[AlizéeInMYHeart]

hope everything will be better for ya.....I have myself been pretty deep down a couple of times, but I have always got the support to climb up again....hope ya get it too....ya know I'll be there fo ya!

All the best to ya

[Lía]

oooh thanx a lot guys!!! i'll be on msn i'll add u guyz l8r :cheesy:

[Lía]

btw... if ya c sum-1 with 'c'est la vie' or 'lía' in msn... then that's moi! :mrgreen:

go raibh maith agat! :mrgreen:

[Manu]

Oh... I didn't know it was that serious, Dusty. What a stupid pm I wrote then, sorry. But you know where you can find me too. You're still my American brotha, dude, I've really missed you. Hablamos pronto.

[squeaky ladida]

take care, both of you
I'm sure that you two will both perservere over your current difficulties, and you will win your struggles with your difficulties
best of luck to a speedy recovery

[Piece Of Paradise]

Help is always around for you guys, just speak up.

[Lía]

yeah i know.....

and i hope that i get loadsa support right now.... coz i don't want to be like this for the rest of my life....

[Lía]

DUSTY - Read the website - it was very informative... i am going to see the doctor tomorrow about it and am going to ask for help... part of it is due to my communication disorder that i have... so it's all connective or linked together... and i also did one of those tests so now i kinda understand a bit more about my emotions/mood swings, etc.. so i just need loads of support and 'knoefels' at the moment... so thanks!

[Dusty]

Blah.......... what?

[Lía]

good for you dusty! sorry i'm not on msn - i'm not on overnight (uk time) - i'm in bed dreaming of, urm.... *him...*

and a little update from me:
the doctor has referred me to see a specialist.... she told me that she would like to change my medication but she is doubtful of the side effects, so she told me that i needed to see a specialist. so i'm pleased that that 1st step has been taken....
and today i'm going to the mall with my mate who i've known since primary school, because j'en ai marre staring at 4 walls all day.... :bounce:

[Riccardo]

Dusty & Alizee_Fan_UK, both of you are the greatest ppl I know. Of course i dont have that much time because i moved to a new town and yeah still trying to get everything working ....
But i read teh whole story, although i dont really know you Alizee_Fan_UK i wish you all the best. And of course the same to you Dusty! I know the feeling of wanting to kill myself. yeah i was in the same situation and tried to slit my wrists. yeah I was laying near a river having drunken tons of whiskey and bear. Then 2 ppl saw me there and asked me whether everything is ok or not. But after a whil eth epolice came and them my mom and friends. man I didn't know how to handle that first but yeah i tried to ignore some thoughts and think of what im able to do in my life, i have so much time left to do such great things, like the time we had been in Paris Dusty, wasn't it a great time? We should do that again man.

I don't wanna lose anyone of you out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Try to get back to life again, forget your damn bad thoughts, remember the good ones, you have so much time left, try to make something out of it.

[Lía]

THANK YOU!!! :cheesy:

and yeah i'm getting help now and i'm getting so much support so i hope to pull through!!! :mrgreen:

[morpheus9999de]

Hey Dusty, i dont have understand all of your writeing, but i had understand that you have had a very bad Time (i think its about you mother too).

I don´t will say, i know what you mean but i have a bad time now too. My Girlfriend hast lost me (what is the word? She is going and had broken our Love) She lives now in London, Great Britan and makes there her Shool- end 2 Years. :cry: Mann thats hard. I was in the Situatin to Kill myself, drive with my Car on an Tree!!!

All what i can say is, hey we have us, and we are friends i think. We all will help us together!!!!

[Homer]

Hello, I take this topic again, because I want to know if anybody knows something about our friend Dusty...
:(

[Manu]

If the Americans who went to the concert in Paris don't know anything, then I guess nobody really knows where he is... : (

[Norske Division]

THANK YOU!!! :cheesy:

and yeah i'm getting help now and i'm getting so much support so i hope to pull through!!! :mrgreen:

I know what that's like, I've dealt with Anxiety and depression too. So while I was in France I picked up some of this Tianeptine antidepressent, it's very popular there. I decided it was time to try something new as all of the standard trycyclics and SSRIs just weren't doing it for me. My Phsychiatrist wise fine with it and is impressed with the results.

I've been taking it for about a year now and my anxiety is almost gone and I feel natural and comfortable around people - and most importantly happy. My relationship with my girlfriend is also great, whereas I didn't even have a girlfriend before! I don't know what's up with US drug companies and the FDA but the French have a leg up on us in the antidepressent area!!

I assume you're in the US right now so this (http://www.antiaging-systems.com/) is where I would order it from. Not an Ad or anything, but I've ordered from them before and they're solid.

[Lía]

i have pulled through a lot!!

and i have some news for ya...

TOT'ALIZÉE'S BACK!!!!!

http://totalizee.forumat.com/index.php :D

please join and be active... as if i have no activity for 7 dayz then it closes..... :cry:

[Jaycubed]

woot good news Lia...

always nice to see another Lili site running...again

[Lía]

thanx m8!!

btw haven't spoken 2u for ages!!! hav changed my msn address, that's why!! do u want the new one???

[Joseph]

THANK YOU!!! :cheesy:

and yeah i'm getting help now and i'm getting so much support so i hope to pull through!!! :mrgreen:

I know what that's like, I've dealt with Anxiety and depression too. So while I was in France I picked up some of this Tianeptine antidepressent, it's very popular there. I decided it was time to try something new as all of the standard trycyclics and SSRIs just weren't doing it for me. My Phsychiatrist wise fine with it and is impressed with the results.

I've been taking it for about a year now and my anxiety is almost gone and I feel natural and comfortable around people - and most importantly happy. My relationship with my girlfriend is also great, whereas I didn't even have a girlfriend before! I don't know what's up with US drug companies and the FDA but the French have a leg up on us in the antidepressent area!!

I assume you're in the US right now so this (http://www.antiaging-systems.com/) is where I would order it from. Not an Ad or anything, but I've ordered from them before and th
ey're solid.

i'm happy for you guys... i always believe deep down inside i'm a manic depressive because i will sometimes not want to do anything but sleep, and i have no foreseeable problems, its just.. i dont want to do anything but sleep or be forgotten.. then other times i'm happy to hop on and play. recently i carved two A's into my hand with broken glass... now that i look on that it is kind of scary... and when my dad hits me or makes me feel horrible i look into a dark area and ask Alizée to appear, to comfort me or anything, but she never does, and should expect that but I guess its just a childs dream.. other's i'll go out of control and start beating up on little brother and héll be crying and my mother will scream and me adn i start screaming too, and she ends up telling me that depression medication is bullsh*t and its only there so parents dont have to parent there kids, and c'est la vie. :) anyhow I hope for the best for you guys!!

[Ayan]

THANK YOU!!! :cheesy:

and yeah i'm getting help now and i'm getting so much support so i hope to pull through!!! :mrgreen:

I know what that's like, I've dealt with Anxiety and depression too. So while I was in France I picked up some of this Tianeptine antidepressent, it's very popular there. I decided it was time to try something new as all of the standard trycyclics and SSRIs just weren't doing it for me. My Phsychiatrist wise fine with it and is impressed with the results.

I've been taking it for about a year now and my anxiety is almost gone and I feel natural and comfortable around people - and most importantly happy. My relationship with my girlfriend is also great, whereas I didn't even have a girlfriend before! I don't know what's up with US drug companies and the FDA but the French have a leg up on us in the antidepressent area!!

I assume you're in the US right now so this (http://www.antiaging-systems.com/) is where I would order it from. Not an Ad or anything, but I've ordered from them before and th
ey're solid.

i'm happy for you guys... i always believe deep down inside i'm a manic depressive because i will sometimes not want to do anything but sleep, and i have no foreseeable problems, its just.. i dont want to do anything but sleep or be forgotten.. then other times i'm happy to hop on and play. recently i carved two A's into my hand with broken glass... now that i look on that it is kind of scary... and when my dad hits me or makes me feel horrible i look into a dark area and ask Alizée to appear, to comfort me or anything, but she never does, and should expect that but I guess its just a childs dream.. other's i'll go out of control and start beating up on little brother and héll be crying and my mother will scream and me adn i start screaming too, and she ends up telling me that depression medication is bullsh*t and its only there so parents dont have to parent there kids, and c'est la vie. :) anyhow I hope for the best for you guys!!
Just tell me this was anotherone of your bad-sarcasm posts please.

Seriously, that post scared the sht out of me. Haven't you tried getting help from doctors? Proffesional psychologists or psychatrists? I mean, don't get me wrong, I am not trying to bash you or anything - perhaps just give some friendly advice. Maybe it would be a good idea to go talk with the school councelor for starters?

Because, you see, I once heard cutting yourself with glass can be unhealthy....

:|

[DavidAlizée]

i carved two A's into my hand with broken glass...!

Alizée "A" dedicated Alizée fan ofc :wink:

[AKMS]

old good knife more suitable for this lol )))

[Lía]

THANK YOU!!! :cheesy:

and yeah i'm getting help now and i'm getting so much support so i hope to pull through!!! :mrgreen:

I know what that's like, I've dealt with Anxiety and depression too. So while I was in France I picked up some of this Tianeptine antidepressent, it's very popular there. I decided it was time to try something new as all of the standard trycyclics and SSRIs just weren't doing it for me. My Phsychiatrist wise fine with it and is impressed with the results.

I've been taking it for about a year now and my anxiety is almost gone and I feel natural and comfortable around people - and most importantly happy. My relationship with my girlfriend is also great, whereas I didn't even have a girlfriend before! I don't know what's up with US drug companies and the FDA but the French have a leg up on us in the antidepressent area!!

I assume you're in the US right now so this (http://www.antiaging-systems.com/) is where I would order it from. Not an Ad or anything, but I've ordered from them before and th
ey're solid.

i'm happy for you guys... i always believe deep down inside i'm a manic depressive because i will sometimes not want to do anything but sleep, and i have no foreseeable problems, its just.. i dont want to do anything but sleep or be forgotten.. then other times i'm happy to hop on and play. recently i carved two A's into my hand with broken glass... now that i look on that it is kind of scary... and when my dad hits me or makes me feel horrible i look into a dark area and ask Alizée to appear, to comfort me or anything, but she never does, and should expect that but I guess its just a childs dream.. other's i'll go out of control and start beating up on little brother and héll be crying and my mother will scream and me adn i start screaming too, and she ends up telling me that depression medication is bullsh*t and its only there so parents dont have to parent there kids, and c'est la vie. :) anyhow I hope for the best for you guys!!
Just tell me this was anotherone of your bad-sarcasm posts please.

Seriously, that post scared the sht out of me. Haven't you tried getting help from doctors? Proffesional psychologists or psychatrists? I mean, don't get me wrong, I am not trying to bash you or anything - perhaps just give some friendly advice. Maybe it would be a good idea to go talk with the school councelor for starters?

Because, you see, I once heard cutting yourself with glass can be unhealthy....

:|

what me and my friends find helpful is that you should keep yourself busy.. then, when u come 2 doing it, u don't want to do it!!

oh and I don't cut myself anymore, nor do i take anti-depressants :mrgreen: i hope that 2005 will be a better year for all of us! :cheesy:

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NEWS ON TOT'ALIZÉE NOW!!

Yep, it's back!! At the mo, only the forum, journal (where u can write ur own diary & ur feelings on Alizée each day) plus the news section is up! coming soon is the galerie/press section, points system and the rest of the site!! PLEASE JOIN!!!!!
http://totalizee.forumat.com

cu there... or u must be a square!!! :P

[RR]

yup, joined it :cheesy:

and it looks pretty cool too.

[Lía]

^ thank you!!!

it should be done by end of january :mrgreen:

[RR]

^you're welcome
n hey lia, i think your site may even be able to rival this (no offence to anybody). can't wait till it gets fully operational. i think the journal and all is gonna be terrific too.

oh, and nice to have you back too. dun really know you, but i'd like to get to know more about you (aside from that in the webmistress). :cheesy:

[Lía]

lol thanx m8!!! i hope that the site goes from strength to strength in 2005!!! :mrgreen:

[Lía]

soz 4 double-posting.... but for some odd reason the server has gone down... c'est pas ma faute!! it keeps on saying "gateway timeout" or summat like that, n the actual main site (forumat.com) has also gone down...

sorry for any inconvenience caused - i hope the site to be online soon....

please don't shoot me.

EDIT - http://jconserv.net/totalizee/index.php please use it :)